Monday, October 31, 2011


my darling friend
faye kotter 
aka witch faye

soon to take flight

The Autumn Sonnets

If I can let you go as trees let go
Their leaves, so casually, one by one,
If I can come to know what they do know,
That fall is the release, the consummation,
Then fear of time and the uncertain fruit
Would not distemper the great lucid skies
This strangest autumn, mellow and acute.
If I can take the dark with open eyes
And call it seasonal, not harsh or strange
(For love itself may need a time of sleep),
And, treelike, stand unmoved before the change,
Lose what I lose to keep what I can keep,
The strong root still alive under the snow,
Love will endure -- if I can let you go.
 ~May Sarton


Sunday, October 30, 2011

in the wee small hours of the morning...

i wonder
i bake potatoes
i read my scriptures
i pray
i fool around on the computer
and, i wonder some more.

i think albert einstein is pretty smart

something inside feels like a sopping sponge
if i press...

humbled at the price, the cost
throughout the ages
His word
the bread of life


Tuesday, October 25, 2011

they eloped

59 years ago today

Bonnie and George eloped
they were 17 years old

they drove to Evanston Wyoming
Saturday the 25th
in my dad's
barcelona blue Ford 1948 convertible
with the top down

no waiting for a blood test there
Bishop Harris an LDS bishop
met them at the courthouse
Bishop Harris had never met them before that very day
he was wearing a blue suit with a red tie

mother (Bonnie) took her best dress to a girlfriends house
it was black brocade and strapless
(George) my dad picked her up at home
after which they stopped and picked up her dress

they changed into their best clothes
once they got to Evanston

blood tests at the hospital
then off to the courthouse for a marriage license
"the whole thing didn't cost more than ten dollars...
gas and all"
they were married between noon and one

this marriage had all been decided the night before
my mother said, "let's get married"
my dad agreed

they drove back to Bountiful
took off their nice clothes at Slim Olson's
Alton (my dad's brother) met them there
he got wind of the marriage

mother's girlfriend (the one holding her dress) told her mother
who called my nana
who called the Clark household in Bountiful
my Grandma Clark was in Mexico visiting her family
but, Nana asked if anyone there was the wiser

dad says, "i had her home before dark...she didn't dare tell her mother"

when Grandma Clark got back in town she asked my dad
"have you been familiar with that girl"
he honestly replied, "no"
"did you marry her?"
he honestly replied, "yes"
"then you had better hustle over to her house and tell her mother"

he did and there were no "congratulations" offered
nana was ticked
nana then got in the car with my mom and dad
and drove to AnnaLee's house
they told AnnaLee (my mother's oldest sister) what had transpired
no "congratulations"

they were legally married for ten days
before they lived together
at $30 a week
this was their first home
for only two weeks

"ten minutes after we moved in 
you were conceived"
he tells me today
wait a minute...
what the....
the Colonial Village Motel?

that cute little bungalow behind us
their first little home...#30

I had offered to take him on a joy ride to Evanston
"only if your mother comes too"

mother is in heaven
he thinks of her every 25 seconds
at least that's what he says
and i believe him

we had lunch close by
i'll be darned if he didn't know the guy who owns the place

from a very long time ago
he tells me stories of Greek families
as we eat Greek olives
and delicious sandwiches

we walked through a little neighborhood close by
where all the front doors
face a garden path
 each other
no street in between
their back yards face the street
i'd never seen such a thing
Boulevard Gardens

59 years ago today
this love is forever

Happy Anniversary Dear Daddy


how hard can it be at the DMV?

Today was to be the day!
Renew my drivers license 
 I collected all four pieces of identification
 I came with the fee
 who knows where in the heck my SS card is
 I haven't seen one of these since college
 at first the lady looked shocked
her head jerked back a little

"you've never worked?"

"well, yes I've worked"

"doing what?"

"I have eight children"

then she looked disgusted
"come back when you have a SS card"
I felt like one of these.


Sunday, October 23, 2011

31 years young

Edward Williams Carter 
was born in Lansdale Pennsylvania
October 23, 1980

He is the fourth of eight children
with a birthday close to Halloween

he was an adorable little boy

he could play with Shipwreck for hours
 He had a huge crush on Vanna White
when he was a little boy

she called him once on his birthday
(i pretended to be her)

his hero was MJ

and Mike Schmidt

Eddie lived for two years in South Africa
preaching faith, repentance, and baptism

painting by Liz Lemon Swindle

he loves to talk politics
push buttons

 some favorites

 he listens to Jim Rome daily

 he graduated from the U

but he's TRUE BLUE

he called Dr. Laura who basically said,
"grow up and be a man"
he is still a huge fun

just look at your life dear boy
you are beloved
and you love
could there be anything better?

Happy Birthday!