Sunday, August 30, 2009

another fond farewell

As summer takes it's final bow I feel a longing to do it all over again. Who knows, maybe she will be back for a curtain call. That would be lovely and I would definitely be part of a standing ovation!

I loved (23-86)

*spending time in Heber (such a beautiful valley)

*preparing food with the girls in the kitchen (pancakes, bean burritos, eggs,...)

*hiking with the kids in Sundance and playing with them in the waterfall

*cleaning Claire up at the stream (she was such a big girl)

*riding the tram with Grace and Jack...Grace spitting over the rail-

*swimming in the pool with the grandchildren (mexican dress stuck to me)
*hiking the Heber Matterhorn with Ali and Kate
*full bloated moon August 6

*watching seven children with spouses surround the Monopoly table laughing (magic)

*discussing politics, fashion, religion (anything and everything)
*watching Joe and Lynda grow their friendship

*watching David and Kelli couple

*time spent in the car with sweetie
*young Ed playing baseball in the Avenues
*Melissa singing and Sam playing his mandolin
*stormy skies and big winds

*watching the staged play of Hello Dolly with Ada (her face was wonder)

*watching the staged play of Hello Dolly with Sam, Melissa and Sweetie (pure delight)

*going out for custard with Danny and Katie...visiting with the neighbors on the porch...having some good laughs all the way around
*attending the Temple with children

*sitting in the Sealing room with worthy adult children and spouses
*Kelli and Dave's wedding (dusty wind blowing dresses, hair, and dead bird off the Temple roof during photo session)

*gathering with family for a wedding supper

*generosity extended to my children
*stake president calls to make sure Dave can get through the door
*getting drenched at Lagoon and I mean soaking wet!
*watching those kids ride the bumper cars over and over and over
*Wicked...never been thrust up and down with such power...amazing

*riding the sky ride with Claire and watching the world below (my favorite ride of all)
*napping on the lawn without a care in the world (the bugs that crawled over me to get to their destination didn't even bother me)

*having the Riches over for dinner and seeing that David would marry into a loving family
*having the Indian family here for dinner before their departure
*Independence Day and the never-ending fireworks...hanging out on the blankets with people I love the most

*my birthday (just about my favorite day of the year) I heard from all of my siblings, all of my children, and celebrated with the most delicious chocolate cake I have ever eaten. PERFECT

*lots of Jazzercise with great music, friends (riding in the car with Julie...I love that girl)
*bridal shower for Kelli offered by Pam and Rachael...such an outpouring of love and support
*read "Travels With Charlie" by Steinbeck and "The Walk-In" by ? . Loved Travels
and so appreciated the well written word.

*attended an Odyssey House meeting with Laurel. (a singular experience that changed my life)
*I ate delicious food this summer (fish tacos, home made burgers, salmon, lots of grilled vegetables, green smoothies every day, garden tomatoes, chili rellenos) --abundance.

*Temple dedication with Joe, Liz, and Sweetie...the spirit was so strong--we are a covenant making people.
*we attended two outside neighborhood concerts (Kellystock and Dallin Frampton)
*lots of early morning walks with Becky (we still haven't solved the world's problems, but we love trying)
*playing card games with the neighbors (i sit at the table in awe of their goodness)

*long phone calls with my sisters
*Nate taking us for Indian food and returning to our home for an evening on the deck talking about cleanliness, getting fired, lessons learned, my parents, politics.

*dinner with the college friends...Sue lost her mother
*arranging flowers and creating a bridal bouquet for David and Kelli's wedding dinner--they were splendid and I enjoyed every minute of creating

*Julie taking me to find all of the odds and ends it takes to make the dinner nice
*movies seen with sweetie, neighbors and Liz --we have had some good laughs

*Cindy sharing a whole bucket of popcorn with me
*praying by my bed, in the car, at the dining room chair, in the living room, in the back yard, in the shower
*missionary splits
*lunch with girl friends --Cindy, Linda, Julie, Janet, Cheryl, Katherine
*Cafe Rio brought to the house and voraciously consumed by children...what was it--eleven dinners?

*purchasing and installing a fountain on the deck with jer and the boys
*potting flowers for the front porch and the railing on the deck

*preparing David to be married (i loved every minute of our time spent together)

*shopping for an engagement ring with Joseph (he loves beautiful things)
*just having Joe home from his mission
*riding that blue scooter all over Holladay

*conversations with my dad

*having Lois here for a couple of days

*spending time with all of my grandchildren and watching their parents parent
*Shakespeare festival with sweetie and finding a great place to eat Mexican food

“Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours”
Swedish Proverb

My life is full of abundance, but I really should eat less. I am thankful. xox


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Psalm 89:15-18

15 Blessed is the people that know the joyful sound: they shall walk, O LORD, in the light of thy countenance.
16 In thy name shall they rejoice all the day: and in thy righteousness shall they be exalted.
17 For thou art the glory of their strength: and in thy favour our horn shall be exalted.
18 For the LORD is our defence; and the Holy One of Israel is our king.


*crisp clean sheets
*a son reading the holy words he selected for FHE
*a smouldering sunset
*fish taco Tuesday
*the way he loves beautiful well crafted things
*a kitty that waits by the door

*cool evenings
*Jean's voice and smile
*my Mexican dress
*fresh peaches and tomatoes from Farmington
*caring phone call
*the faith that all things are possible

Let us be joyful in the good news of the gospel. May we forever obey and relish in being His peculiar people.


Monday, August 24, 2009

too many to number

I have always thought it would be a blessing if each person could be blind and deaf for a few days during his early adult life. Darkness would make him appreciate sight; silence would teach him the joys of sound.
Helen Keller


*brown eyes that really see
*ears to hear these birds and soft breaths of dear heart
*the youngest filled with eager school news
*burning desire
*feelings of gratitude and wonder at a Temple dedication
*juicy fresh fruit swirling around in my blender

*a new dishwasher that makes glasses sparkle as if they were washed by hand
*caring friends (they ask like they really want to know)
*crickets that remind me of summer's last gasp
*a ride on the little blue always makes me smile


Sunday, August 23, 2009

white handkerchief

A burning bush searing my heart. As I study this pure white token of faith and power I notice the hand-crocheted edges...crafted by a stranger. The lace is loopy and uneven; imperfect. How fitting that I should raise this token laden with symbol in a God revealed shout; imperfect. While I linger on holy ground and listen to impressions that really do press... I feel complete. He alone can make me whole.

Amen, Amen, and Amen.


Saturday, August 22, 2009

"never had a job"

Last night when my husband got home from a two day fishing trip with three neighborhood friends he mentioned that these friends asked if I have ever had a job. Then he told me that they all got a good laugh when he told them that I worked for three weeks making jewelry at a kiosk in the mall right after we got married. Somehow, and I'm not sure why, this makes me feel small. When I asked, "why didn't you stick up for me." He said, "I told them you were busy raising eight kids."

work I have done to earn money...

-waited tables and prepared food at an ice cream parlor while in high school
-waited tables at a pizza parlor while in college
-above said bracelet maker right after marriage
-Jafra lady (paid for our first set of China with this money) living in California.
-Avon lady while living in Colorado.

work I have done that didn't bring in a dime...

-yard work growing up
-directed two plays in college
-raised eight amazing children (lots of time alone and sometimes extremely difficult)

-church work simultaneously with all of the above

So here's the thing. This list of paying vs. non-paying work make me feel so blessed to have been able to do work that really made a difference in my life as well as in the life of those I love.

While it is true that my parents didn't want me to work while in high school or college telling me that my work was to get good grades. It is also a fact that I went to college year round so that I graduated with a BA when I was twenty years old. I was married my last semester in college so I worked at the pizza place that paid for our wedding invitations as well as my husband's wedding ring.

I was twenty-one when our first baby was born and thirty-eight when the last baby blessed our lives. So, even though it's a bit of a joke (my husband gets a kick out of the social security statement that periodically comes in the mail and informs me just what a pitiful amount of money I have paid) I have not been "sitting on my hands." It's true... I have had the luxury of being a full-time mother while my husband worked hard and was out of town 2/3rd's of our married life.

Whew! Do I feel better having explained "no job?" Darned right I do.


Friday, August 21, 2009

Missionary Splits

Last night I had the opportunity to meet with the sister missionaries and experience a taste of what their work is all about. I went with a beautiful young woman from Japan to a waiting appointment. Right out of the gate I was struck with the desire to go home ... this just didn't feel productive. We drove up into the cove; parked the car and approached our family that the sisters have been working with. On the lawn on a warm summer night was a 30ish woman, a little overweight wearing a tank top and sporting a tattoo on her back and ankle. She was chopping at beautiful blonde hair from her six year old daughter. This was to be her back to school haircut. The scissors were sawing away as she randomly lifted wafts of silky hair which fell to the grass. There seemed to be no rhyme or reason to the cut. The mother's left arm was badly damaged having elongated hunks of skin missing from her forearm as well as above the elbow. A daughter about twelve years old was tumbling around on the grass revealing a badly scarred back as her shirt would slip up. This little family of five children and a mother are living with relatives that have six children and two parents. Members of the church are opening up their homes for the children to be taught in a calm, organized environment. We gathered up four of the children and walked about four doors down the hill.

My heart was so heavy for this little family. "How do these kids have a chance,?" kept going through my head. They had resilient smiles on their faces, but the weight of their challenges pressed on me. "Where much is given, much is required," Luke 12:48. So, how can I help...really help? As we drove away I looked into the beautiful face of that Japanese missionary woman and told her of my heavy heart. She smiled and asked why. "Because these children do not come from the same kind of homes we were raised in." She nodded and said nothing.

As I related this story to my returned missionary son today he said that it was commonplace to see downtrodden souls and he promised himself that he would never take for granted his fortunate state. But the question I ask myself has to do with being a wise steward as well as a positive influence.

Elder Boyd K. Packer said in Nov. 1974 "This is His church. In it you will not stand approved of all men. Many, perhaps most, will consider you strange. Some of the doctrines are not easy to understand or to accept. The commandments are not easy to live. The standards, I repeat, are high, but you can start where you are.

"Many of you are burdened with unhappiness and worry and with guilt. Many of you struggle under the bondage of degrading habits or wrestle with loneliness or disappointment and failure. Some of you suffer from broken homes, broken marriages, broken hearts.

"We are not offended at all of these things. All of these things may be set aside—overcome. Whoever you are and whatever you are, we reach out to extend to you the hand of fellowship so that we can lift one another and lift others.

"This is His church. I have that witness. Jesus is the Christ; he lives. It’s commonly taught that he is but an influence in the world. I know him to be Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the Only Begotten of the Father. I testify that he has a body of flesh and bones. This is his church. Of that I bear witness, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen."

These lines restore possibility and faith to what I watched, heard and felt. I need to have the Heart of Christ so that I can see the possibilities and not get buried by past sorrows. I want to carry faith, hope and charity to His children. This seemingly random act of service on my part once again testified to me "to lose your life for my sake" is the only way to find a life worth living.


Thursday, August 6, 2009

Holy Matrimony

Today is the Day!

Today my son David will enter God's Holy House and covenant before God, Angels and earthlings that he will be true. He will receive his bride and take her to himself to love, honor and protect not just for now but forever.

I am humbled at these sacred vows. I am humbled by these amazing blessings and promises. I stand all amazed at His great loving kindness to His children.

I have mothered eight children. This boy, our sixth child and fifth to be married, is filled with eager anticipation. He is ready to become complete. This boy is now a man and has been so for some time. My husband asked me last night after David left our bedroom... he had been laying on my bed recounting his hurried -- jumping through hoops day... husband asked, "are you ready for this boy to move on?" It was easy to respond that it is time, but I will miss him. I have watched his loyalty and focus shift from home and hearth to his sweetheart. I love seeing that gradual process with each of my married children. My joy is seeing their new found half help them be whole. I truly "stand all amazed."

Thank Thee dear Father for sending me each child to love and nurture. This privilege has been the work, tears, and joy of my life.

“For behold, this is my work and my glory to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.” Moses 1:39


Monday, August 3, 2009

One Perfect Day

A few months ago when my son Joe came home from his mission to Arizona I was filled with great hope and anticipation. I felt like I was going to burst in my desire to see and hold that boy. With all of this excitement I looked to the day when all of my children would be together. But, due to STUFF that seemingly perfect moment never came. I remember asking out loud, "is it too much to ask for one perfect day?"

Since that question was vocalized by me I have had a lot of time to think about it. Now I can see that this thinking does not come from a place of abundance. Since then I have had numerous "perfect" moments. All unique to themselves but a common thread that runs throughout... that being gratitude.

Yesterday was such a day. Myself, me, was filled to overflowing with amazement at how much my life has been blessed. I noticed that all of my senses were active, that I was unhurried, that my spirit was at peace. I felt the prayer to be forgiven for being so short sighted. I did not see then that the joy of enjoyment is not about having a preconceived notion in having particular events be just so.

My desire for One Perfect Day has lead me to experience many that are Perfect.